We have been apart for far too long. Trying to build my career both sides is hectic. But anyway, here I am, still being consistent. This deserves an award by the way.

Let’s get into it shall we?

It’s 1pm at my workplace, we’re idling around because its lunch time and the food is way too expensive and I’m just a 21-year-old girl on a budget, so the only thing I can do is entertain them interns because I recently found out that I am an entertainer, a good storyteller. I’m not kidding, I’ve had my training officer laughing a little too hard, and by the way he has that rich laughter. Y’all get to him before anybody else does.

‘Carol if you won’t get any skills here, make sure you at least leave with a mpoa (boyfriend).’ Lans says laughing. ‘Will you even be able to focus with that hottie hot hot in that lab. If I was in your place, I’d have booked him to just have one night, just one night with him,’ Emms says. Uuum I’m kind of lost because who are we talking about. Just kidding, I know exactly who they’re referring to. I cannot dare lose any focus because I’m trying to build my career here y’all. I’m not even sure I want to get kids in future, soooo my focus remains.” I speak out

The place was dead silent. I look around, everyone is looking at me in shock.

Emms breaks the silence saying, ‘girl what do you mean you don’t know if you want kids? you are a woman, of course you want kids.’

YEESSS,

YEAH,

I mean, RIGHT,

How can you not be sure?

What do you mean?

The rest join in. ‘I mean exactly what I’ve said. I’m not sure. I may or may not decide to get kids.’ Ash speaks up and says, ‘she’s only saying that because she’s like 20 years old. Wait until she’s 30 and her husband threatens to leave her, she’ll have no option but to want them.’

As Ava Coleman said, ‘somebody get me a chair so I can laugh and fall off it.’ Husband! Who said anything about a husband? Oh wait, I forgot to say, I’m not sure I wanna get married either.

WHAT?

NO!!!

WHY!!!

Everyone says in unison.

‘My oh my, you’re going to be so so lonely when you’re old.’ I don’t know who said this because I was so agitated by that. I asked, who said that, no for real who said that because, BOLD of you to think I don’t enjoy my own company. No, BOL Dof you to think just because just because their men’s heads are round like telletubbies head, the world revolves around them, because truth be told it doesn’t.

Period

And that’s that.

The conversation went on for so long about how I’m not woman enough, because who wouldn’t want to take care of their husbands and kids, make their house clean, feed their people, etc. Oh so now we’re talking chores. Once again, BOLD of them to think that if I get married, I won’t be rich, or I won’t have an equally rich husband. That insulted me the most. My friend Faith says that I shouldn’t judge because most people aren’t that exposed, all their life, they’ve lived in a bubble, but I’m sure if she was the one giving her opinion, they would all pass out of shock.

I couldn’t help but wonder. Was I brought to earth to do things that please a man? I mean, Manz doesn’t want onions in his food, I should also not want onions or what exactly. Manz want 10 kids so I should give him 10 kids even if I didn’t want that. I mean God forbid a girl wants to have 1 or no kids, is that an offense? And don’t get me wrong, I’m not against marriages, but well, it just made me wonder.

That was the longest day at work, I was so glad when it was over. Also, I’m officially done with week 2. I am so looking forward to week 3. For real, I am really excited. Who knew I’d end up loving this.

As I wind up on this newsletter, my question to y’all is, is the only purpose of a woman’s life to have a man and kids?

Have an amazing weekend.

Love, Caroline <3